लम्हा लम्हा वक़्त गुज़र ही जाएगा,

बेकल सा ये दिल बहल ही जाएगा,

आज आया है तो कल भी आएगा,

इसी तरह ये साल बीत जाएगा,

और नए साल की उस नयी सुबह में,

दिल फिर इक नयी उम्मीद जगाएगा

Only 3 days left... before we move into 2010. Overall 2009 was rewarding n blissful, from beginning to end... (except a few lessons hard-learned)...Touch Wood. Hope n wish that the ball keeps rolling on n on............ "AMEN"

2009 is towards the End,, and my mind flashes back to its Beginning. How was the year which is just going to be over in 5 days... Off to a retrospective journey to the past 12 months.

ढ़लता सूरज...और एक ढ़लती हुई शाम......

खुमार चाहत का है या कोई ख्वाब है,,

लग रहा है यूँ की जन्नत आस पास है,,

जमीं है, फ़लक है, ये जहाँ या वो जहान,,

खयाली बरसात है या रूमानी एहसास है

A silent ambiance surrounds me.... deep within cacophony hails.

कुछ नज़र नहीं आता, नमी ये कोहरे की है या धुंधला गयी हैं आखें आंसुओं से...

ज़िन्दगी..... कैसी ये पहेली हाय !!!

ज़िन्दगी भी अजीब है, पता नहीं क्या क्या दिखाती रहती है... कहीं किसी मंजिल की तलाश होती है, तो कहीं कोई रास्ता ही नहीं नज़र आता,,, और कभी इतनी राहें होती हैं पर ये नहीं मालूम पड़ता की वो राह कौन सी है जो मंजिल तक ले जाएगी,,,, कभी कभी कोई मंजिल ही नहीं होती, बस राहें भटक कर रह जाती हैं..... और कभी मंजिल का तो पता होता है, लेकिन वहां ले जाने वाली कोई राह नहीं होती...

ना हार से ना जीत से, किंचित नहीं भयभीत मैं;
संघर्ष पथ पे जो भी मिला, ये भी सही वो भी सही

The world around me sounds utterly stupid and mad at times, trying hard to make me also feel the same and be a part of it ... Ohhh God... its a big challenge to keep your own thoughts clear and intact.

Each morning brings with it something... today's brought peace of mind.

इतनी बड़ी दुनिया में मैं एक कतरा ही सही, पर मेरे मन में फैला ये समुद्र अथाह है,, जिसकी लहरें हर पल हिलोरें मारती रहती हैं, और जो कभी शांत ही नहीं होता.....

There are some days when you need God more than other days.....

People sometimes don't speak to others, It's difficult. But I wonder what would life be without mental dialogue...!!!

The dream was eluding me. To catch up, to live for a moment in unison with it, was a miracle.

BECHARA Veer....

How utterly stupid the daily sops can be in the rat race of TRPs. Here I'm talking about the daily soap of Colors - Uttaran. Today's episode was disgusting.

Presently, Uttaran viewers have seen Ichcha engaged to Veer. An envious Tapasya is simply unable to disgest the fact that a proposal that was initially meant for her is now fallen in the lap of her poor friend. The riches and Veer's love that Ichcha is currently enjoying is envied by Tapasya. Now Tapasya is using every means to get Veer back by hook or crook.

Poor Fellow Veer..I feel pity for him.... Earlier he came to see Tapasya, but Tapasya didnt like him and left him with Ichcha, saying "maine Veer tumhe diya". Then Veer found his love in the submissive, humble Ichcha; now when they are engaged and about to marry, on the day of marriage, Madam Tapasya does all the drama and beg Veer from Ichcha, and Madam Ichcha blesses her friend with Veer... uffffffffffff......Veer na hua, koi thali ka bengan ho, jidhar chahe ludhka do. I couldn't tolerate a second after this.

Dear Veer...I feel sorry for you....and more sorry for the couch potatoes wo remain glued to such idiot screenplays. You guys, now be ready with towels to dry the monsoon of tears for the poor girl Ichcha.

When you know it's not going to happen, still you wait for miracles, This is called HOPE.

It's a wonderful moment, a great feeling when you hold that first pristine copy of your First book in your hands, close to your heart ... You experience a euphoria and a great sense of satisfaction and achievement. ......................... And the last 2 days euphoria was Amazing and Divine...!!!

Those Cherished Walks....

Getting back to the track after long for those evening walks was so refreshing and pleasant experience. Somehow I like my walks... as that's the time when I am only with myself. That some time in the natural surroundings with greenery all around, I don't like to think of my work n work pressures at all. Nor does I like to ponder over the uncertain future. But that is the time when I am most contemplative too.
From some time now, walks had also been too mechanical. Like that too some sort of work to be finished in that given time, and then straight rushing to another work. Few days back, I just took a break after that routine spiritless walk was over and sat there on a bench, weather was pleasant, and cool breeze was blowing. Fountain was running in front of me, and it was quite peaceful around. In those very few minutes I inhaled the serenity to the core and rejoiced those moments purely.
And there and then, in those few moments I realized how automated n monotonous I ve made my life. The word enjoying life has taken a different meaning in my daily routine. Have lost somewhere those carefree jovial days when outings were a delight, only for pleasure, and used to be energizing and refreshing. And then I decided I want to relive n rejuvenate my life, indulging in all those small small pleasures. Sitting idle and just admiring and enjoying nature, How badly I wish to go to hills, to waterfalls, to overflowing powerful rivers, listening the sound of flowing water.... Oh My God.... Nature is so beautiful,,,, and there is so much to explore !!!

इरादे

रात गहरी ढल रही है
लौ बाती की बुझ गयी है
ऐसे में भी हार न माने
जीत की है मन में ठाने
जगमगाती घोर तिमिर को
कर्मयुद्ध को दहकाती
शनै: शनै: सुलग रही है
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